.::From Me To You::.

9.35 am

2010-09-05T18:34:00.000-07:00

Yang indah hanya sementara
Yang abadi adalah kenangan
Yang ikhlas hanya dari hati
Yang tulus hanya dari sanubari

Tidak mudah mencari yang hilang
Tidak mudah mengejar impian

Namun yg lebih susah mempertahankan yg ada
Karena walaupun tergenggam bisa terlepas juga
Ingatlah pada pepatah, "Jika kamu tidak memiliki apa yang kamu sukai, maka sukailah apa yang kamu miliki saat ini"

Belajar menerima apa adanya dan berpikir positif
Hidup bagaikan mimpi, seindah apapun,
begitu bangun semuanya sirna tak berbekas
Rumah mewah bagai istana, harta benda yang tak terhitung, kedudukan, dan jabatan yg luar biasa, namun..

Ketika nafas terakhir tiba, sebatang jarum pun tak bisa dibawa pergi
Sehelai benang pun tak bisa dimiliki
Apalagi yang mau diperebutkan
Apalagi yang mau disombongkan

Maka jalanilah hidup ini dengan keinsafan nurani
Jangan terlalu perhitungan
Jangan hanya mau menang sendiri
Jangan suka sakiti sesama apalagi terhadap mereka yang berjasa bagi kita
Belajarlah tiada hari tanpa kasih
Selalu berlapang dada dan mengalah
Hidup ceria, bebas leluasa

Tak ada yang tak bisa di ikhlaskan
Tak ada sakit hati yang tak bisa dimaafkan
Tak ada dendam yang tak bisa terhapus.

Ambil dari sini. Oh, saya suka!

3 hari lagi.

Ramadhan yang menemukan.

2010-09-02T17:56:00.000-07:00

Salam.

Life is God's novel. Let Him write whatever He wants.

And Allah, I love my storyline. Thank you, You! =)
Please add more Rahmah and Barakah for my next chapter, pretty pretty please.
And every time, Ramadhan, always become the important part in my Book for the whole year.

I could not ask for more.

7 days left.

Life as it is.

2010-08-26T17:10:00.000-07:00

Salam.

Hidup, memang berubah sangat deras. Dan kadang-kadang sedar saja, kita perlu membuat keputusan memilih jalan-jalan persimpangan yang banyak bersimpang- siur. Manakah hujungnya?

Kalaulah ada signboard..

Kerana perubahan yang deras ini, saya lemas sendiri dalam keputusan diri. Terlalu deras hingga saya tak sempat mengadaptasi diri dalam suasana baru. Saya perlukan masa Tuhan. Tapi Tuhan tahu saya mampu. =)

Dalam cerita lemas dan deras, kebetulan bulan yang mulia, datang berkunjung. Lewat malam itu, saya pulang, kembali duduk di atas tikar lusuh bersama sekeping hati, dan saya tinggalkan semua di belakang. Semua.

Saya sudah pulang. Saya.dan.sekeping hati.

Dan saya tahu, saat ini, walau banyak mana pun jalan yang bersimpang siur, walau manapun jalan yang saya pilih, walau sebaik atau seburuk mana pun penghujungnya, dengan adanya Kamu, tiada apa yang perlu saya takuti. Tiada apa yang saya tak boleh hadapi.

Dan malam itu juga, saya bangun dan melangkah.

If I can kill it, i would.

2010-08-18T23:31:00.000-07:00

The feelings.
The memories.
The conversations.
The dreams.

Haunt me every time. And i wonder if you feel nothing about those.

Grieving, dying or coping?

Here I am

2010-06-17T08:40:00.000-07:00

Doa itu senjata.

2010-06-03T00:13:00.000-07:00

Salam.

Perjalanan ke Kazan yang menemukan saya dengan saudara-saudara seagama yang meluahkan rasa tentang masa depan mereka yang kelam, juga gembira dengan kedatangan kami yang mereka rasa memberi sedikit sinar dan harapan,

juga berita tentang fortilla dan saudara-saudara Palestin di sana;

mencampur adukkan semua rasa sedih,kesal, marah, geram, juga kelam;

dan rasa itu saya tumpahkan semua pada Kamu, dan disebalik semua rasa-rasa itu, saya tinggalkan rasa syukur dan terima kasih; supaya pengharapan pada Kamu tidak akan hilang.

Terima kasih.

***

Dan berita-berita ini, membuatkan rasa masalah saya begitu picis berbanding masalah orang. =)

Little sunflower.

2010-03-07T11:38:00.000-08:00

Love me, love me not.
Pick me, pick me not.
Break me, break me not.

It's always a little too late.
is this what they call it fate?

2010-02-22T22:19:00.000-08:00

Me : :(. You there?
(10 minutes later)
You: Why are you sulking, Amie?
Me: I'm reading this Sophie Kinsella book and i came to a line " Because you can want and want and want but if he doesn't want you back, you might as well wish the sky were red"
You: And that makes you sad?
Me: Yes..
You: Clearly the author doesn't know the concept of redha or tawakkal even qadha' and qadr.

And that sends me a very deep feeling of tranquility and serenity.

For everything i have now is His and He entitles to take it all back if He wants to. It's hard, but well, life is just a test.

***

I need some inspiration.Care to send one?

2009-12-10T13:01:00.000-08:00

Salam.

"Aim for the stars, even if you fail, you will land on the moon"

Seriously, this phrase should not exist. If the stars are the aim, and instead you landed on the moon which is not your primary aim then it just shows you are defeated, you failed and admit it -loser!

The moon is just to symbolize that you already reach somewhere far enough yet the stars is still out of your reach.

If i want the stars, it has to be stars. Moon or Zuhal or even Pluto could not do it.

I better pray hard, don't i?

***

The clock suddenly ticking louder than it used to be.
Your best friend suddenly become a stranger.
You are surrounded by all the people you know, yet you still feel alone.
It's your favourite food but you don't feel like eating.
It's snowing and everything is white and you don't even notice that autumn has long gone.

Nothing wrong nothing right.

***

I am

2009-11-19T10:27:00.000-08:00

someone who just love to screw up here and there.
Learning the same thing again, and again.
and again.
And i'm sorry you have to be the teacher.

Stand by me.

2009-10-27T06:06:00.000-07:00

Salam.

***

Sahabat : Bila Amie nak ada teman lelaki?

Saya: Kenapa? Okay apa kawan-kawan je.

Sahabat : Sampai bila Amie cuma nak berkawan?

Saya: Maksudnya?

Sahabat : Ya lah. Kenapa cuma berkawan. Kenapa tak lebih dari kawan. Sampai bila cuma ada title kawan?

Saya : Oh. Lahh..tak kan Amie kot kena cakap suka walaupun suka. Selagi lelaki tu tak cakap suka tak kan Amie nak cakap.

Sahabat : Cakap je lah. Kalau orang putih, diorang suka, diorang akan kissing. Tapi kita mana boleh. Jadi cakap lah yang lebih baik.

Saya : Haha. Amie bukan macam tu kot. Lagipun senang macam ni. Kawan-kawan.

Sahabat : Sampai bila? Sekarang Amie masih ramai kawan-kawan single, bolehlah rasa selesa. Tapi masa hadapan nanti. Saat semua orang mula hidup baru, semua akan tinggalkan Amie.

(Sejenak terkenang Amnah.Dan Che Pah, oh dan Odah. Cheh, semua orang cam kawin awal and tinggalkan saya je.Haha.)

Dan saya faham hasrat murni si sahabat, yang tidak mahu lihat saya keseorangan.

Dan perbualan itu juga membuatkan saya terfikir, nanti, di saat semua orang pergi tinggalkan saya, adakah sesiapa yang akan stay di sisi teman sampai mati?, stay sampai akhir nanti?, dan stay walau seteruk mana perjalanan hidup seterusnya akan dilalui? Ada tak?

Dan saya tiada jawapan itu.

***

(Yang ini saya saja bubuh nama, biar semua orang tahu, siapa sebenarnya yang ajar saya tentang cinta.Haha)

Shameera : Amie tau tak apa makna cinta?

Saya: Tak.

Shameera : Cinta itu adalah bila kita mula berhenti mencari.

Saya: Taklahhh ..(Ayat panjang lebar meng'argue')

3 tahun kemudian, saya mengaku kalah.
Bila sudah kata suka, memang sukar mahu mencari yang lain semula.

***

Kenapa entry cinta?

Kerana tahniah pada sahabat, Syarifah Aisyah Syed Abdul Halim yang akan melangsungkan perkahwinannya bulan 12 nanti. =)
Kita rindu Aisyah. Jadi isteri solehah tau.
Terkenang-kenang zaman remaja dulu-dulu.

*Sigh*

sheesh

2009-09-08T11:44:00.000-07:00

Salam.

Saya sangat suka ini, jadi mengabadikannya di sini.
Kredit kepada tuan punya tulisan.

DIAM

Mulutku - diam..
Degup Jantungku - diam..
Hela nafasku - diam..
Gerak nadiku - diam..
Akalku - diam..

Aku - diam..

Aku cuba mencari sesuatu dalam diam..
Aku cuba rasa degup jantungku dalam diam..
Aku cuba mengira hela nafas yang kuhirup dan kuhembus dalam diam..
Aku cuba fahami korelasi gerak nadi dan degup jantungku dalam diam..
Aku cuba terokai akalku dalam diam..
Aku cuba kenali aku dalam diam..

Aku cuba mencari aku..
Aku cuba mencari kamu..

Aku cuba mencari bahagia..
Aku cuba mencari cinta..

Aku cuba mencari DIA..

Mengapa aku masih diam bila dunia mahu aku bersuara ?

Kerana hanyasanya dengan DIAM aku bisa temui SEMUA..

Aku dalam diam,
Anwar Fazal Abu Bakar

Gate 202.

2009-08-29T15:47:00.000-07:00

Salam.

Kalau tiba musim bunga, saya akan takut kedatangan musim sejuk.
Kalau hari yang nyaman, saya takut kedatangan panas terik.
Kalau datang rasa bahagia, saya tertanya bilakah duka akan menduga.

Sebab hidup janjiNya turun naik.
Ada senang dan susah.

Saat-saat akhir cuti tempoh hari, walaupun perancangan cuti banyak tak jadi,
namun apa yang saya mahu semua Dia tunaikan, walaupun kemahuan yang tidak masuk akal.
Saya suka juga takut. *sigh*

***

Ramadhan

2009-08-21T18:20:00.000-07:00

" Ya Latiff, berikan aku hati yang lain
Yakni hati yang lebih yakin,
hati yang lunak..
agar mampu mencintai-Mu"

-PahrolMohamad Juoi-

***
Saya memang mohon benar, hati itu.
Dan entah kenapa Ramadhan kali ini, membawa rasa melankolik yang amat.

***

Setiap amalan itu menjadi kafarah bagi seorang hamba melainkan amalan puasa.Puasa adalah untuk Ku dan Aku akan mengganjarinya (Hadis Qudsi dari Imam Ahmad)

***

whereabout

2009-08-11T05:56:00.001-07:00

Salam.

Sudah lama tidak update.

Dan cuti summer ini sebenarnya saya banyak perancangan yang saya mahu buat, tapi mungkin ia bukan satu keperluan jadi ALLAH tidak izinkan dan Dia tukar rancangan saya menjadi lebih baik. Jadi cuti kali ini semua lari dari perancangan, namun, saya happy.

Saya mahu buat practical lama-lama, saya mahu buat di Pusrawi juga HKL, tapi akhirnya saya duduk di rumah teman ayah ke hospital kerana baru diagnose sakit jantung. Kalaulah, kalaulah saya buat practical saya tak akan ada di samping ayah saat ayah kena admit ke Ampang Puteri. Saya juga mungkin tak dapat mengikuti perkembangan ayah dengan baik.

Saya juga mahu ke kenduri Yaqzan di Klang, tapi akhirnya saya stay di Hulu Pangsun, maka saya dapatlah mendengar ceramah Proff Latiff yang sangatlah memotivasikan diri.

Dan di saat akhir, saya yang diletakkan di department Ophtalmo, telah senang-senang ditukarkan oleh cik kerani ke Department Medical.

Kalau Tuhan katakan jadi, memang jadi ;)

The clock is ticking. So loud.

2009-06-24T21:04:00.000-07:00

The day you gone,
is the day i realize, i will have no one to share things with anymore.
it's not my greatest day,
nor the most bad day.
It just another day that gone by,
and many days like that will come.
It just a reminder to be stronger.

I hate goodbyes.

He offers me protection, a lot of love and affection.

2009-06-13T09:24:00.000-07:00

whether I'm right or wrong,
and down the waterfall,
wherever it may take me,
I know that life wont break me ,
when I come to call He wont forsake me
I'm loving HIM instead.

Thank you for the greatest love.

He who created the heart, knows about it..

2009-05-28T09:07:00.000-07:00

Salam.

They said, try to understand words that they don't say.
And try to listen not only just hear.

It's like you don't just read a book but learn it.
Learn and read is different.

Because what matters most, is what you don't hear, and things they don't say.

Girls.

2009-05-16T12:08:00.000-07:00

Salam.

All girls fret over their clothes and so am i.So it is not exactly my fault.

Me: I have a dilemma. Which clothes should i wear tomorrow. The purple one or the brown one.
A friend: What's the difference?
Me: Colour and style.
A friend: For God's sake, does that matters? It doesn't change a thing about you.
Me: Well, it kind of does. I look different in both clothes. Dress to impress, remember?
A friend : *Sigh*. You dressed to cover up from the mahram. Not to impress others. That's the reason God create clothes.
Me: Ooookay. Now purple it is.

This conversation happens a loooong time ago, and i kind of having flash back each time i pick any blouse from my wardrobe.And the memories kind of fading away until yesterday...

It's hard to be a girl every time summer comes (see, not only you boys, us too, in different case of course) because they would put up all those pretty pretty cute little frocks on the rack and you just have to try it on. And you know you shouldn't have. Coz the moment that you did if it's fit, then the next step is to buy it. And if you bought it, you would wear it. And if you wear it in the room, it's okay, but then if it is so pretty you couldn't help to have this tiny little bit of feeling to want to show it off to the world.And you couldn't. And that's when you started feeling all guilty.

And so i tried one of those pretty pretty cute little frock and da, it's fit! And i looked at the mirror and suddenly the conversation above playing around my ears. I always do things for a reason and i wonder if i buy this dress what reason will it be? I have no husband to dress up to and my roomate will never care. And that dress isn't made to be wear just like that. And so, i put it back to where it belongs.

***

And this is not about the dress, nor about the conversation. But about friends and friendship. I'm glad that he/she remind me that day and till now surprisingly i still use the reminder. I'm glad that he/she tells me the very truth and true thing to do and not just things i want to hear. And mostly i'm thankful that i have lots of this people around my life. God, I'm so emotional right now, i know, but i just can't help feeling glad to have you people around me.

And Aimi Liyana. Happy Birthday. I love you.

p/s: I still want to buy a dress someday.

- -

2009-05-11T09:14:00.000-07:00

Salam.

Menjawab tag.

1. Anda rasa anda hot?

Tidak sama sekali.

2.Upload gambar kegemaran anda?

3. Kenapa anda suka gambar ini?

Kerana penangkap gambarnya adalah saya. Dan saya rasa hasilnya cantik. Haha.

4. Bila kali terakhir makan pizza?

Hmm...2-3 bulan lalu, mungkin.

5. Lagu terakhir yang anda dengar?

Tim McGraw - Taylor Swift.

6. Apa yang anda buat selain menyelesaikan tag ini?

Menonton Friends Season 3.

7. Selain nama sendiri, anda suka dipanggil dgn nama apa?

Princess ?

8. Tag lagi 5 org?

1 Fan
2 Amrien
3 Hanan
4 Hazreen
5 Raimi

9. Siapa no. 1 pada anda?

Seorang yang penting di internet.

10. Orang no. 3 ada hubungan dgn sesiapa?

Tiada. Dia orang kuat YSF Association. Haha.

11. Kata sesuatu mengenai org no. 5?

Seorang yang pandai bermain gitar juga multimedia.

12. Bagaimana pula org no. 2?

Seorang sahabat lama, yang sudah lama tidak bergossip dengan. Apa khabar kamu di sana ya?

13. Pesanan kpd no. 4?

Dengan ini, aku officially promote ko punya new blog.

***

Entry ini.

2009-05-08T03:17:00.000-07:00

Salam.

Menjawab entry ini dengan entry ini yang diolah sedikit di sini,

Heh, tali temali ghaib yang terlekat di belakang-ku, hanya boleh dikendalikan oleh 3 perkara; pertama: Tuhan (obviously), dan kedua: ibu ayahku dan ketiga: seorang lelaki. Dan kau wahai penulis blog ini, bukan lelaki itu.

Terima kasih.

Dan siapakah di antara kamu yang lebih baik amalannya?

2009-04-01T11:09:00.000-07:00

Salam.

Takes away everything he has, his house, his money, his family....

his health.

Makes him sick.

To test his faith.

***

Maaf lewat.

2009-03-14T08:17:00.000-07:00

Salam.

Untuk Cik Fan

Picture Desk Perfect
1.Take a picture of your desk/table
2.Don't change anything
3.Don't edit anything
4.Try to explain what's on your desk

Salam.

Ada gelas, tempat letak brooch-brooch kecil, vase kaca dan bunga hidup yang hampir kering, buku-buku juga kertas, frame gambar dan gambar, laptop, juga keyboard bercetak Russia.

***

Dan gambar ini, untuk Fan, untuk menunjukkan di mana calendernya terletak.Ada nampak
Fan? huhu.

Dan di bawah ini, apabila saya sedang bersolat, roomate yang baik hati ini telah menaip ini.Dan saya mahu publish juga.Padan muka! LOL.

ini lakonan name nye, selalu nye meja ni akan leih bersepah . kwn2 di lur snae jgn slah pham. bersepah bukn sbb saye mls nk kemas, tp sebb saye rajin belaja. hihihihi
saye rjin belaja ni pon sbb i`m actually inspired. inspired by my on cutie mutie rumate. die tu mmg rjin belaja dan bak kate org2 tu, x penh kenl erti putus asa.
hidupnye penuh dgn semangat kesukanan. tuan2 jgn slah pahm, beliau bukan di pdang2 bola @ mane2 gelanggang, tp bersukan di atas katil muhuhhuhuhuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!!

Whoops.

2009-03-12T11:25:00.000-07:00

I tear the memories away.
And erase all the laughter.
I feel brand new.
Suddenly everything feels okay.

I miss Kak Fir.

Fan, will reply your tag soon okay ;)

I don't.

2009-03-05T07:36:00.001-08:00

Salam.
This is for my dear dear Odah. ;)

1. How old are you?
22.

2. Are you single?
Yup, anyone?

3. At what age do you think you'll get married?
I'll say 27.

4. Do you think you'll be marrying the person you are with now?
I'm with no one now.

5. If not, who do you want to marry?
A man, definitely.

6. Who will be your bridesmaid & bestman?
Close friend.

7. Do you want a garden/beach or traditional wedding?
Garden! I'm all about flowers and nature.

8. Where do you plan to go on honeymoon?
Beach.

9. How many guests do you think you'll invite?
Lots.

10. Will that include your exes?
If they are nice to me, why not?

11. How many layers of cake do you want?
3.

12. When do you want to get married, morning or evening?
Early morning, or late evening.I love sunrise and sunset!

13. Name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding.
His favourite songs and mine. (There'll be lots of Jonas' songs and people can't complain, hah, that'll be fun right?)

14. Do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon & fork n knife?
I prefer buffet.

15. Champagne or red wine?
None.

16. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
Days after the wedding.Well, i might run out of cash right after the wedding.

17. Money or household items?
Can i have both?

18. How many kids would you like to have?
Ask him.

19. Will you record your honeymoon in DVD/CD?
No. Some things are meant to be remembered.

20. Whose wedding plan would you like to know ?
Syahidah Azizi , Amnah (You're welcome, Munir), Amrien and Fan.

I steal this from Syahidah :

"The doors of Heaven to mercy will be opened in four situations: when it rains, when a child looks kindly at his parent’s face, when the door of the Ka’bah is opened, and when marriage (occurs)." [Prophet Muhammad saw]

Tiger lilies.

2009-03-01T13:09:00.000-08:00

Salam.

2,3 minggu ini agak sibuk.
Esok exam lagi, dan sepanjang hari minggu depan juga.
Buku lebih banyak dari masa.
Badan sudah penat.
Semangat juga sudah bersisa.
Cuma rasa mahu berhenti.

"Di dunia memang penat, kalau mahu berehat, tunggu hari anda mati nanti.
Masa itu, rehatlah sungguh-sungguh, sebab tiada lagi amal boleh ditambah,
tiada lagi kerja boleh dibuat, juga tiada lagi cabaran untuk dihadapi"

Saya baring,
sumbat earphone sennheiser pink yang bermutu ini,
putar lagu syurgaMu.

Dalam gelap yang dicipta sendiri,
ini yang saya mahu.

Sometimes they knock me down but, no i'm not breaking

2009-02-18T10:01:00.000-08:00

"When the going gets tough,
the tough gets going"

"No one can predict to what heights you can soar,
until you spread your wings"

"There's always gonna be another mountain,
and i'm always gonna wanna make it move"

"Find your will, keyword - FIND"

Okay, i really really wish i can do this,- aminn

2009-02-13T14:47:00.000-08:00

Salam.
Sementara diri masih mampu,
mari memberi semaksima usaha mungkin,
untuk membantu mereka yang memerlukan.

Kerana mentari masih panas di sini.
Dan mungkin esok lusa akan hujan.
Dan sejuk basah mereka hari ini,
akan terbias pada diri sendiri suatu hari nanti, mungkin.

Usaha kecil ini, moga DIA merahmati,
moga disana merasai.

Pumped up!

2009-02-05T13:17:00.000-08:00

New sem, new feeling,
new beginning, new things coming.
I'm so excited!
Bismillah..

***

Mine is bluish-green or dark-brown with bright pink stripe.What colour is yours?-

2009-01-31T07:55:00.000-08:00

Salam.

It's like a set of jigsaw puzzle.

***

We watched movies, we went skating, we danced, we shopped, gossiped and talked and talked endlessly.
That's how i spent my holidays and i guess it's the most relaxing holidays ever.

***

In which one piece (let's say the one in the middle) can fit with four other piece of puzzle. Only to this four.

***

I get to spend this holiday with some friends whom i rarely hanging out with and surprise me, they are quite different than i thought they were. In other words, i get to know them better. They prefer action movies, they dance to Shakira or Destiny's child songs, they think longer before they buy anything, they don't jump everywhere, and they don't like Twilight the movie.

Different than me.

***

But that doesn't mean this one puzzle can't get along with the other 996 pieces. They might not share the same features but they are in the same box so they need each other to form a perfect jigsaw puzzle.

***

See, it's cool to be different and to be just yourself

and you'll upgrade to the coolest if you are the one who could embrace the differences and treat the difference like how u yourself want to be treated.

And they are indeed the coolest friends. ;)

Perfecto.

2009-01-21T13:34:00.000-08:00

Salam.

Saya suka sesuatu yang sempurna.
Dan saya juga seorang yang akan memastikan sesuatu itu sempurna.
Sempurna serba-serbi.
Benar-benar sempurna.
Mesti sempurna.

Kesempurnaan, siapa yang tidak mahu?

Dan bila wujud cacat cela,
lebih-kurang yang saya tidak mahu,
yang datangnya di luar kemampuan saya,
rasa negatif akan hadir.

Dan lewat hari itu, saya sedar,
kalau Dia mahu beri yang sempurna, Dia boleh beri.
Tapi yang sempurna itu bukan untuk saya.
untuk mengetuk balik hati,
saya memang tidak akan sempurna.

Kalau semua sempurna, mesti saya akan lupa.
Terima kasih.

"Dan pemberianNya itu sama ada menggembirakan atau menyusahkan hati, namun wajib disyukuri"

Mom said,

2009-01-12T03:23:00.000-08:00

Always, always have a good heart.

Because people with a good heart always win.

And i like to win. A LOT.

Life is a battlefield.

Ring, ring, the truth is calling!

2009-01-05T14:32:00.000-08:00

Salam.

Being a medical student in Russia like me, gives some inferior feeling when you start to compare yourself with your friend who is studying in an English-speaking country.
And being a fresh graduate from Russian university is far more worst.
A senior who is now working in one of the hospital in Malaysia told my mom her experiences and in return my mom started to express her concern over my future.
To be honest, i'm aware about things i will be facing after graduate, but well, remember i told you about the joke , yeah i pretend not to see the future, right now, not yet.
Because I don't want the news to shake the grounds that i've been standing which already feels quite shaky now, and most importantly i don't want to lose my faith and hopes.
I just want to give all my best, and strive harder. And the rest I'll leave it to ALLAH.
I'm halfway about to reach my dream, and nothing could ever bring me down.
I'm going to keep this real. Insya-ALLAH.

***

People don't change.They grow up.

And I used to be a girl who hate changes because she was afraid things might not be as great as before.
I used to be a girl who hate growing up for she was scared if she couldn't keep up with the real world.
I used to be a girl who always laid back and wait, hoping that those people whom she had been waiting for so long will look back and saw that she is still there waiting for them.
I used to be a girl who always go with the flow.Rather than striking to new direction she will just laying there, doing nothing letting the tide took her wherever they goes.

And I think the time has come for the scared caterpillar to enter it's cocoon and celebrate the process of evolution.

***

Blink our eyes, life's rearranged.
To our surprise, it's still okay.
It's the way things happen.
Summer comes and then it goes.
Hold on tight, and brace for cold.
And it's only for a moment.
We've all been down that road before.
Searching for that something more.

Worlds are spinning 'round.
There's no sign of slowing down.
So won't you take a breath?
Just take a breath.
People change and promises are broken.
Clouds can move and skies will be wide open.
Don't forget to take a breath.

***

I asked a friend, what's his new years resolution.
He said, he don't need any resolution.For him new year is just another day, he is a type of person who constantly changing depending on the situation and always has high self-motivation.If he set a resolution,it will be like limiting his abilities and power for he knew he could achieve more than that.

I was like, WOW.

Sejenak.

2008-12-31T02:11:00.001-08:00

Salam.

Dalam kemeriahan menyambut tahun baru,
juga dalam kegembiraan bersama rakan-rakan,
juga dalam keasyikan membeli belah kerana winter sale,
satu rasa hadir,
selfish kah saya?, kerana nun di Palestin sana,
ada saudara-saudara saya yang tidak dapat merasai
meriahnya tahun baru, juga gembiranya satu kehidupan.

Maaf, hanya doa yang dapat saya bantu.
Maaf.Maaf.Maaf.

***

Dalam sibuk dunia periksa, seorang rakan mengatakan, tidak berapa berusaha, malu mahu berdoa pada Tuhan untuk berjaya, diiringi dengan keluhan.

Ah, sahabat, ketahuilah, jangan lokek untuk berdoa pada Tuhan, sebab Dia bukan seperti kita-kita, manusia biasa ini. Dia adalah Tuhan. Dan kalau bukan padanya kita meminta, siapa lagi?

Tak mengapalah, kalau tidak berapa berusaha, kerana kesilapan kita, tapi pergantungan pada Dia tetap kena ada. Tetap kena minta. Sebab Tuhan paling suka pada orang yang berdoa. Bila seseorang itu berdoa, baru ada rasa kehambaan, baru ada rasa kekurangan, dan barulah ada rasa Dia Maha Terhebat.

Kerana kita sebenarnya tidak memiliki apa-apa pun di sini.

Say hello to 2009 and 1430 Hijriah.

2008-12-28T09:06:00.000-08:00

Salam.

(I love rapping.So read like you're rapping,please.)

It's the end of the year,
The time where everyone look back
To the history they've made
and see how good they've got
how far they've changed
To be a person called human

Through this whole year
I might not be a best friend ever
or the very best daughter
But I tried hard to do better
than last year
Guess, i'm just a failure

And i'm scared
What 2009 will brings me
I wish for happiness and strength
and love and luck to stay
And whisked pain and sorrow away,
hoping this coming new year
will then left with the best memories ever.

(That's why I always try to rhyme words)

*Whoops*

Thanks friends for giving me another wonderful year ;)

Happy new year people!

Oops.

2008-12-16T04:11:00.000-08:00

Salam.

Sorry people.
I didn't realized i've enable comment moderation all this while until a friend of mine mention he dropped a comment for my recent entry, and I was like, oh, at last someone wants to drop me a comment! I was excited, but then,when I checked, the comment didn't appear (of course u silly, you have to approve it first! *sigh*) ..blabla.. and now I already turn it off.

To my dear sis, you did send me a reminder for your birthday, and i'm so so sorry.I've missed it, the reminder and your birthday too. I will make it up to you, i promise.

To The Mighty Zewt thanks for dropping by. I was so surprised when I saw your comment, but i guess it is too late to reply. Anyway, if you happen to read this, i am one of your biggest fan and your writing enlighten and inspire me a lot. You make my day ;)

And to other readers who left their comments via YM - you guys are so sweet ;)

***

It's pre-exam week.
The week where everyone is drown in their own books and schedule. We are busy, preparing ourselves for we have our own goals to achieve and during these times we tend to ignore other people who are in need.

And most of the time we blame these people for what they'd done in the past.
Well people, let's stop blaming them for their mistakes.
Reach out.

Oh, wish me luck ;)

Manners, people!

2008-12-14T02:03:00.000-08:00

Salam

"When a (courteous) greeting is offered you, meet it with a greeting still more courteous or (at least) of equal courtesy" (4:86)

I was in a friend's room this morning, and she cooked for me and several other friends of ours. This person, the one who cooks, let's name her S, is well-known for her kindness, warm-heartdness and several other nice adjective words you can put here, and she is no pretender. As we were talking, one of the friend suddenly point out S's well behave manners and she said she is uncomfortable with that!. For God's sake you are in her room, eating her food and talking like that?

She even added that 'she doesn't care if S is pretend to be nice or originally nice but it's just so abnormal to be that nice' (Oh My Goodness). And so I snapped, "Or maybe it is you who is abnormal? ", and she got so offended and protecting herself saying that the way she behaved consider as a 'normal people'. Oh girl, you got offended when people called you abnormal but you are calling other people abnormal. How insensitive is that?

Well, as you can guess, S just remained calm and she even smiling. Though, I know the words must cut her deep, but she just too nice to say anything not nice to the person who is clearly not nice. After helping S cleared up everything I hug her so she will know that I accept her as a friend the way she is.

***

I'm not blaming her though. But I learn something from this.

Remember Raja Petra getting caught because insulting Islam in his blog? And in one of his entry in Malaysian Today regarding the latest issue, landslide in Bukit Antarabangsa he quoted (the line mention Terengganu because it is a flashback to a bus crashed happens in Terengganu) "...looters were citizens of Terengganu ‘the Land of Faith’ who would never dream of missing a day of fasting or skipping even one of their five times a day prayers." And that is what he sees in a Muslim. If you want to read the whole entry click here.

And true enough, we the Muslim are not strong in morals and good manners. And I'm not surprise if what written there is actually the truth.

And that's something we need to change. What's there for praying 5 times a day and fasting the whole month when you yourself did not behave like someone who meet ALLAH 5 times a day? Even our Prophet was send to us to complete Adab aka manners and have left The Holy Quran and Hadiths for guidance but do we actually practice what our Prophet have taught us?.

Well, I'm not that perfect either and I'm trying. If we did not treat this small wounds good enough, it might getting worse and worse.

Abu Darda' r.a reported that The Messenger of ALLAH s.w.t said " There will be nothing heavier in the balance of The Believer on The Day of Rising than good character. ALLAH hates foul language," (Tarmidzi)

Abu Hurairah r.a said "The Messenger of ALLAH was asked about things most likely to bring people into Garden. He said, Taqwa to ALLAH and good character, He was asked about things most likely to bring people to Fire.He said, the mouth and genitals ," (Tarmidzi)

A'ishah r.a said " I heard the Messenger of ALLAH say "By his good character a believer can reach the same rank as someone who fasts and prays at night." (Abu Dawud)

2008-12-12T22:11:00.000-08:00

Salam.

I was attending this usrah, and as usual the first part will be tadabbur ayah from the Holy Quran.And on that day it was Surah Yusuf. After finished reciting, normally each of us will picked 1 ayah that we like and give reasons why we choose that Ayat. I was considering 2,3 ayat to say when suddenly one of the usrah member said "Amie likes this Ayat,". I was taken aback. How did she knows? She said I told her like 3,4 months ago during this other usrah which I don't even remember what Ayat we were reciting that day. And she even remember the explaination I gave!

Scary.

People remember what I said is just scary, because most of the times I don't even remember what i said yesterday or even 10 minutes ago.And sometimes I talk crap things. Now I just have to watch out my tongue. Because I don't want to be remembered as someone who said something but did not even practicing it.

***

I never realized that reading a book in Metro could make you look so hot.And yeah, it's true. I was coming back alone from hospital yesterday and I saw this super-hot guy reading a book. He is like around my age and he looks so focused. He makes me remembered a situation back in Malaysia when I told my brother to bring books to read in LRT and they declined. They said, boys read books are not cool. Well, brothers you guys are wrong.

Reading books and looking so focused are way much cooler than standing and hanging around the LRT speaking loudly like u want to grab people attention but you don't, or just even sitting there doing nothing other than staring other people clothes and accessories like Malaysians always do.

2008-12-11T02:37:00.000-08:00

Salam.

Cik Fan tagged me.

I done this before. But since i'd already wiped out all my old entries, i might as well do it again, no harm aite?

So this is me.

7 things about me

- I owned fussy picky tastebuds. Who won't love delicious tasteful food?
- I appreciate arts and nature.
- I think people who love black don't have life.
- I choose tea over coffee.
- I think loud.
- I drink Goodday milk only.
- Clumsy is my middle name ;)

7 things that scares me

- My One and Only
- Height
- Darkness
- Alone
- Drunk people
- Stray dogs
- If, if IF my laptop broke down

7 Songs I listen to right now

- Taylor Swift's
- Saujana's
- Jason Mraz's
- Coldplay's
- Simple Plan's
- Ungu's
- Sami Yusuf's

7 Words I always use

- babe (a nickname)
- Shameera (A friend name)
- Mayein (Also a friend name)
- Ainul (My roommate)
- Awkward.
- Insya ALLAH
- Alright.

7 things I appreciate

- Families
- Friends
- Islam
- All the 5 senses I have
- Memories of the past
- Memories in the making
- My candle collection

7 first time

- Got a chance to ride in a Porsche and i didn't even know it was a Porsche
- Bought my own watch last year.
- Doing VE.
- And the rest, tiada idea sudah...

7 people I tag

- Odah
- Hanan
- Shafie Jamiran
- Amnah
- Syahidah
- Amrien
- Raimi
I wonder if they ever visit my blog.Haha.

The Princess and The Pea

2008-12-03T10:45:00.001-08:00

Salam.

One thing about believing in a fairy tale is
it keeps you from losing faith.

No matter how hard things may seem, you just have to hold on, and keep giving your best, for you know that the story will always end with a happy ending.
Though you yourself know that in this real world it does not work that way, but to have those positive feelings, gives you a little refreshment..

A little bit longer, Amie.

***

Joke of the year.

"Our future is just so bright, so-so bright that we have to close our eyes and pretend not to see what is in front us"

Haha.

p/s: Someone has moved from fp to blogspot! Yeay! =)

;-O

2008-11-30T12:49:00.000-08:00

Salam.

If we are all watermelons,
the one with not so sweet taste, and not so round smooth surface, will be me.

Perfect is just boring.

Speaking of knowledge.

2008-11-24T08:23:00.000-08:00

"Verify, the knowledge of the Hour is with ALLAH (alone). It is He who sends down the rain, and He Who knows what is in the wombs.No one knows what it is that he will earn tomorrow; nor does anyone know in what land he is to die" (31;34)

Who could create better than this?

No one.

***

I looked up, to the sky.
And watched how the baby snow falling, rumbling and twirling
following the blowing wind until it landed safely on the ground.

And the time seems to stand still.

Tell God everything.He could hear you.

2008-11-19T08:00:00.000-08:00

And so i did.

O ALLAH make me a better person in each day u gave me
and please do not let a day passed by
without me getting closer to You.

***

I remember a scene in a Hindi movie, where the heroin
went to a church to pray, the moment her hero getting engaged to the other girl.
And the hero went up to meet this heroin and asked,
"What's there left to ask God? I'm already engaged.We should tell my family now or never...(blabla),"
And i so like her answer.

"Strength.I asked for strength to see you with her,"

*Tears*

Cool,huh?

2008-11-17T11:34:00.000-08:00

Salam.

Kamu mahu tahu bagaimanakah perasaan benar-benar regret?
Ia adalah apabila nafas itu kamu tidak mahu hembuskan,
kerana itu nafas terakhir kamu.
Dan jika kamu lepaskan, kamu tiada peluang langsung untuk peluang kedua.

Dan sebelum masa itu datang, mengapa biarkan berjuta nafas yang ada sekarang berlalu pergi?

2008-11-07T11:43:00.000-08:00

Salam.

12.42 am.
Volgina Street,Moscow.

For momma.
I don't usually sing, but the song is just too beautiful,
and too perfect for you.
It's from Paul Byrom.
She.

She may be the beauty or the beast
May be the famine or the feast
May turn each day into a Heaven or a Hell
She may be the mirror of my dreams
A smile reflected in the stream
She may not be what she may seem
Inside her shell.

She, who always seems so happy in a crowd
Whose eyes can be so private and so proud
No one's allowed to see them, when they cry
She may be the love that cannot hope to last
That comes to me from shadows in the past

And I'll remember 'till the day I die
She maybe the reason I survive
The why and wherefore I'm alive
The one I care for through the rough and ready years
Me, I'll take the laughter and her tears
And make them all my souvenirs
For where she goes I've got to be
The meaning of my life is she...

It has been a long and stressful week. A lot things happened, and all I need now is a hug from you. I found it funny when i have a lot things to say, but when i heard your voice greet me over the phone, everything seems to be ok, and I need not to say anything. It's the mother-power, no, super power.

***
I miss her.So badly.

'Everybody wants to change the world, but no one wants to help mother washing the dishes' . So true.

and to my favourite player from Ohana, play hard tomorrow. I might come and watch your game.;) Do your best.

Liubov.

2008-10-28T09:22:00.000-07:00

Salam.

Suatu hari di stesyen LRT sedang membeli tiket,
Salam Akak.Saya dari rumah anak yatim *sekian*sekian*. Belilah kalender ini sambil menderma.
Mak saya pernah pesan, jangan dilayan sangat kalau orang minta derma cara begini sebabnya mungkin dari kegiatan orang yang mempergunakan budak-budak.
Dan saya tanpa melihat ke arah budak itu, memasukkan wang ke dalam dompet, sedaya upaya mungkin cuba membuat tidak tahu.
Akak tidak mahu menderma?
Dan secara refleks saya menoleh ke arahnya.
SubhanALLAH.Mukanya saling tak tumpah muka adik saya, juga tingginya,juga rambutnya dan matanya yang menatap saya...Saya terdiam di situ.Dan tak semena-mena hati saya sebak.
Akak nak beli tak?

***

Mak pernah kata, jangan cakap kasihan dekat orang. Kalaupun rasa kasihan dekat orang, ucaplah SubhanALLAH. Sebab ALLAH itu lebih Maha Mengasihani. Kalau kita sibuk kata kasihan, seolah-olah apa yang ALLAH timpakan itu, sangat buruk dan teruk, sedangkan Tuhan kita tidak pernah mahu menyeksa hamba Nya. Malah, yang baik dan buruk dari Nya semua ada hikmah disebaliknya dan siapalah kita yang mampu mencari di sebalik yang tersirat?

Walau macam mana kita lupakan Tuhan sekalipun, nikmat yang diberi tidak akan terhenti. Layakkah mahu berkata kasihan?

***

Berborak-borak bersama seorang sahabat, dia bercerita tentang cinta dari sudut penilaiannya. Kata dia, cinta itu bukan untuk orang yang sempurna. Bukan untuk orang yang ada segala-galanya, ada ibu bapa, ada penglihatan dan keupayaan, juga cukup semua anggota. Kalau itu adalah cinta, tidak bermaknalah erti cinta itu sendiri. Sekadar rasa sayang dan suka pada sesuatu yang sempurna.

Cinta itu, adalah hak milik orang yang kurang upaya, orang yang memang tidak akan pernah memiliki cinta sepenuhnya, orang yang tidak tahu juga tidak merasa erti hidup sempurna, mereka inilah yang layak dicinta.Cinta yang sebenar-benar cinta.

Dan si sahabat memandang saya, tidak begitu?

Saya tidak tahu.Yang saya tahu cinta itu milikNya. Kalaupun mereka-mereka di dunia, kurang mendapat cinta makhlukNya, siapa tahu sedang cinta Tuhan pada dia lebih besar berbanding kita?

***

2008-10-21T01:02:00.000-07:00

Salam.

***

We’d be so less fragile
If we’re made from metal
And our hearts from iron
And our minds from steel
And if we built an army
Full of tender bodies
Could we love each other?
Would we stop to feel?

-Three wishes-

***

U.

2008-10-16T12:14:00.000-07:00

Salam.

Kamu,
Seperti jari-jemariku, yang jika kehilangan satu daripadanya,
kerja tangan menjadi cacat cela,
yang susunannya cantik mengikut fungsinya,
yang berada paling hujung daripada semua anggota utama,
namun jika kamu tiada,
aku tidak akan sempurna.

Kamu begitu pada aku.
Tahukah kamu?

One day in Shawal.

2008-10-05T12:54:00.000-07:00

Salam.

Every grain of sand,
In every desert land, He knows.

Every shade of palm,
Every closed hand, He knows.

Every sparkling tear,
On every eyelash, He knows.

Every thought I have,
And every word I share, He knows.

Allah knows

***

Saya tinggal dengan seorang yang bukan beragama Islam.

Suatu petang dalam bulan Ramadhan.

Dia: Amie,why are you eating kurma only? It's berbuka time meh?

Saya: Ainul went out. Tak best nak makan nasi sorang-sorang.

Dia : Owh. Do you know that you were born alone in this world? and that when you died you will be alone too you know.You have to get used to it.

Saya : I know...but, before i died, i don't want to be all alone.

Dia: We are actually alone. I mean, when you are at your happiest, it's you who could feel the happiness and no one else, or when you are really really sad, you can only shared your feelings to your friends but it's you who feel the real sadness inside you know.

Saya : *Sigh*. Fine. I makan lah ni.

Saya tahu ada Yang Maha Mengetahui, Yang Satu dan padanya saya berkongsi semua rahsia hati.

***

6 Oktober datang lagi.
Dan berbanding tahun lepas, banyak sudah berubah.
Saya mohon, kehidupan yang baik-baik dan ketenangan dalam hidup. Amin.
=).

Lebaran menjelma lagi.

2008-09-29T13:33:00.000-07:00

Salam.

Sudah lima tahun.
Dan tetap dengan ucapan yang sama antara kami.
Dan pada hari ini, yang bengkok diluruskan, yang masam dimaniskan, yang putus disambungkan, yang keruh dijernihkan.
Selagi esok, matahari masih terbit di ufuk timur, ucapan maaf masih diterima Tuhan. Sungguh, kemaafan adalah dendam terindah.

-Ikhlaskan hati mohon kemaafan tebuslah dosa ditapak tangan lupakan segala silap dan salah-

***

Buat sahabat-sahabat yang saya kenali secara langsung atau tidak, mohon maaf atas keterlanjuran kata, terkasar bahasa sama ada secara sengaja atau tidak sengaja.

Kepada mu ALLAH kupanjatkan doa agar berkekalan kasih sayang kita =).

Redha pada yang sedikit, adalah satu ciri takwa.

2008-09-22T09:15:00.000-07:00

Salam.

Terjumpa ini di Flickr seorang senior, tiba-tiba rindu pada Kak Fir (sungguh tak pasal-pasal haha).

Kutemukan dahi dan sejadah.
Dalam sujud aku penuh berserah
Pujian hanya pada Rabul Izzah
Kerdilnya hamba,insan yang lemah

Kupanjatkan doa pada Yang Esa
Sepenuh hati kumenyampaikan bicara
Dalam doa mengharap cinta
Yang hakiki dan abadi
Tulus ikhlas sepenuh hati
Yakin seluruh jati diri

Aku resah dalam kisah
Doa mungkin dijawab entah
Kerana aku abdi yang leka
Seringkali melakukan dosa
Mana mungkin kuperoleh cinta
Andai hati dicemari lara

Karya oleh : Abang Idham yang telah memperoleh cinta (heh heh)

***

Saya tepis rindu pada yang sementara,
Nanti, ini 10 malam terakhir Ramadhan.
Senggangkan sedikit rindu untuk Tuhan.

***

Dah boleh try baju raya ke?

Perjalanan ini sememangnya singkat.

2008-09-16T12:13:00.000-07:00

Salam.

Orang: Dah berapa tahun ko puasa dekat sana Mi?
Saya: Masuk ni 5 tahun lah.
Orang: Mesti bestkan puasa and raya dekat perantauan.
Saya: Lor, apa yang bestnya.Bazaar ramadhan tak de.
Orang: Best la.Buka dengan kawan-kawan ramai-ramai, rasa macam dah besar.Huhu
Saya: Owh. Macam tu ke. Herm.. Bolehlah best, tapi tak se'best' kalau ada mak ayah kot.
Orang: Owh ye ke..

Kalaulah dia tahu, kehilangan nikmat berbuka bersama ibu ayah adalah sesuatu kehilangan yang besar.
Juga kalaulah dia tahu betapa best nya makanan di bazaar Ramadhan.
Cuma mungkin bila berada di lingkungan nikmat itu, kita seperti kurang menghargai sehingga kadang-kadang rasa manisnya hilang. Yang terindah selalu datangnya tak disedari, namun perginya ditangisi

Sudah lama tidak mengedit gambar, terjumpa pula gambar ini.
Gambar ketika transit di Suvarnabhumi, Thailand Airport sebelum pulang.
Cantikkan. Pemandangan di airport tercantik berbanding airport lain yang pernah saya singgah.
*rindu rumah*

Owh, dan berbuka bersama Ainul (roomate) juga adalah satu nikmat yang patut saya syukuri.heh heh.

2008-09-13T20:35:00.000-07:00

Salam.

Sinar pagi,
Bunyi burung,
Tiupan dingin angin,
Embun yang menitis,
Rasa rindu pada ibu ayah..

Bunyi yang didengar, benda yang dilihat dan dirasai, juga perasaan yang terbit dari hati. Semuanya percuma kan.

All the best things in the world is always free.
Always.
Thank You ALLAH.
Thank You.

- -

2008-09-10T09:30:00.000-07:00

Salam.

Membuat kesalahan itu indah,
kerana dengan kesalahan itu,
kita tahu satu kebenaran.
Seandainya kita memberi sedikit ruang untuk melihat
bahawa itu satu kesalahan.

Bila kecil-kecil dahulu di tegur emak, tak boleh buat itu, tak boleh buat ini, kita akur.
Dan bila dimarahi, kemarahan itu jadi kesan ingatan, bahawa yang kita buat itu salah,
lain kali tidak boleh diulangi.

Dan bila sudah mengenal dunia dan isinya, sukarnya mempunyai perasaan 'Ya, saya bersalah', atau 'lebih baik lagi 'Dia menegur untuk kebaikan saya'.

Egokah?
atau kotorkah sekeping daging itu?

Maaf teman, berikan saya sedikit waktu untuk menerima kekurangan diri sendiri.

Type.Delete.Retype.

2008-09-07T20:11:00.001-07:00

..

2008-09-03T19:09:00.000-07:00

Salam.

Cycle Ophtalmology yang jauh dan memenatkan,
tambah lecturer yang strict dan menekan.
Dan saat-saat ini, suatu yang diperlukan, telah hilang..

*emotional breakdown*

Pujuk hati,
Insya-ALLAH, semuanya akan Ok.
Akan Ok..

Tapi,
Benarkah di sebalik mendung langit, masih ada matahari?

***

And I’d give up forever to touch you
’cause I know that you feel me somehow
You’re the closest to heaven that i’ll
Ever be
And I don’t want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
’cause sooner or later it’s over
I just don’t want to miss you tonight

And I don’t want the world to see me
’cause I don’t think that they’d
Understand
When everything’s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can’t fight the tears that ain’t
Coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you’re alive

***

Sempurnakan.

2008-08-29T19:09:00.000-07:00

Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan Mubarak
&
Selamat menunaikan ibadah-ibadah yang dituntut di dalamnya ;)
Semoga tahun ini lebih baik daripada tahun lepas.Amin.

***

"Kenapa u orang islam sanggup puasa dan solat lima waktu? u all tak rasa susah ke?,"
"Kerana cinta. Bila seorang ibu cinta pada anaknya, dia sanggup buat apa sahaja untuk membesarkan, untuk membahagiakan. Sama juga la,"

***

Dan cnta ini mengajar saya ketahanan dan ketabahan.
Juga kesabaran untuk terus taat.
Bismillah.

-

2008-08-25T19:35:00.000-07:00

Salam.

Dalam gelap malam, selalu yang di cari terangnya bulan dan indahnya bintang.
Dan kerana indahnya bintang ini, ceritanya selalu dikarang dalam lagu, dimadah dalam puisi dan dilakar dalam kanvas-kanvas si pelukis.
Walaupun diketahui umum, bentuknya tak seindah dilihat dari jauh, dan terangnya hanya kerana simbahan sang mentari, namun yg dipuja tetap si bintang.

Tuhan, beginikah simbolik dunia-Mu?

in the end..

2008-08-18T17:58:00.000-07:00

Salam.

Alhamdulillah. Sunathon ended smoothly.

Layla had summarized the whole program pretty well and i hope she won't mind me linking it here.

Bunch of thanks to Layla and Dinie for giving me a first-class ride from Damansara (their home) to Lenga. Also thanks to their family for providing us roof over our head and food that kept coming continuously. They said, spread the love to the people who give love to you, and even to the people who don't. The way your Tok and Nek and both of your parents treat us like a family really touched me, and i really hope someday i could do just the same to you or to other people, so that the love that your family had spread to us could be shared with someone elses.

Also, thanks to Abon for giving me a lift to Tol Ayer Hitam and was kind enough to wait until my family arrived to fetch me safely.

And above all, thank you ALLAH. Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli hal.

- -

2008-08-05T07:33:00.000-07:00

Salam.

23:00 p.m.
Malaysia.

Saya rindu seseorang yang jauh.

Kerana rindu ini,
saya mohon..
Semoga kamu bahagia di sana.
dan semoga urusan kamu dipermudahkan.
Juga, semoga DIA yang tidak pernah tidur
sentiasa melindungi kamu.

Angin, sampaikan ya.
Saya tutup mata, dan saya percaya,
khabar saya melalui angin pasti akan sampai.
Moga malam ini, tidur saya tenang.

Love is..

2008-07-27T17:23:00.000-07:00

Salam.

" Tiket isteri ke syurga adalah di tangan suami. Jadi lepas berkahwin, semua jadi tak penting selain suami. Dan suami adalah segala-galanya untuk seorang isteri,"

"Kalau sebelum berkahwin, tiket ke syurga adalah ibu bapa, selepas berkahwin, tiket ke syurga berpindah ke tangan suami, sebab tulah, kamu kena cari orang yang nak pegang tiket kamu ni betul-betul,"

"Namun sudah memiliki tiket pun belum menjamin kamu boleh masuk syurga,
Sabda Nabi s.a.w "Bukan amal seseorang yang memasukkannya ke dalam syurga atau melepaskannya dari api neraka, termasuk juga aku, tapi hanya rahmat ALLAH lah semata-mata," (Riwayat Muslim)

Tahniah untuk sahabat, Sikin dan Rafeeq.
Saya melihat, dan saya mendengar.
Dan saya gembira ;) .
Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli hal.

Untuk Awe's dan Aliff's

2008-07-01T00:42:00.000-07:00

Salam.

(Saya memang suka menipu pemandu teksi)

Encik: Adik dah kahwin?

Saya: Dah. (Heh heh)

Encik: Owh. (Sambil melihat saya melalui cermin) Dah ada anak?

Saya: Belum ada rezeki.

Encik: Dah berapa tahun kahwin?

Saya: Dah setahun.

Encik: Owh. Baru setahun. Kenapa tak nak anak? Nak kumpul duit dahulu?

Saya: Erm.... (Idea, idea cepat datang..)

Encik: Kita ni kalau Tuhan nak kasi tak boleh tolak. Bila ditolak, nanti bila nak tak dapat. Ada sorang kawan saya baru kahwin, kata tunggu 2 tahun untuk anak, sekali tu bila dah habis 2 tahun, nak anak tak dapat. Dua tahun lagi baru dapat. Kan dah rugi 4 tahun.

Saya: (No komen)

Encik: Umur berapa?

Saya: Encik teka saya umur berapa?

Encik: 22?

Saya: (Wah pandai encik) Taklah, mudanya saya.Saya 24 (Muahahaha)

Encik: Owhh.(Tengok lagi cermin) Patut dah dapat anak dah. Tengok cincin kahwin adik.

Saya: (Erk.Kantoilahh) Saya tak bawak tinggal dekat rumah.Takut cicir.Longgar sikit cincin tu.

Encik: Cincin kahwin mana boleh bukak-bukak.Berdosa la.

Saya: Hisy. Takkanlah dosa.

Encik: Kalau orang India yang pakai thali, tak boleh bukak dah.Dosa.

Saya: Itu orang india...

Encik: Entah-entah adik ni saja tak nak pakai cincin. Jadi ngaku belum kahwin. Cari lelaki lain. Orang perempuan sekarang pandai. Cari yang kaya-kaya.

Saya: Eh, takkanlah. Memang tinggal cincin tapi tak cari lain. ( Kepada yang sudah berkahwin jangan jadi perempuan begini ok? )

Sampai ke destinasi.

Encik: Lain kali pakai cincin, dik.

Saya: Baik.Terima kasih.

Nampaknya, perlu membeli cincin lain kali.Haha.

p/s: Encik Hadoken, Kuala Lumpur ada sale 3-6 July ni untuk Isetan, sekarang semua pun sale.Murah2..haha. ini je update baru.Lain macam sama je ;p.

I got a pocketful of sunshine

2008-06-12T06:20:00.000-07:00

Salam.

Cute kan gambar ni. Dan ia untuk kamu. Ya, kamu, sahabat aku.

"Hai anakku apabila engkau bersaudara dengan seseorang, buatlah dia marah sebelumnya. Jika dia berlaku bijaksana di waktu marah, teruskanlah, kalau tidak jauhkanlah"

Tenang.

2008-06-10T00:44:00.000-07:00

Salam.

Mengimbau 8 tahun yang lampau.

"Ayah,Jihan (kakak saya) dapat 9A (PMR),"
"Tak pe Jihan, ayah faham.Jangan sedih,"
"Jihan dapat 9A lah,"
"Iya ayah tau..takpe..Nanti bila-bila boleh cuba lagi,"
"Lah apa ayah ni...,"
Dan kakak saya mendengar dia bertanya si rakan "Eh anak aku dapat 9A PMR ok ke tu?,"

Huhu. Ya, family saya bukan yang memaksa anak-anaknya menghadap buku, dan juga tidak pernah merasa mendapat no.1 di sekolah adalah satu kejayaan hidup.

***

Membaca tulisan sendiri 4 tahun lampau.

Kejayaan itu adalah apabila

- Anda berjaya mendapat sesuatu yang dihajati, dan jika bukan yang dihajati pun anda berjaya menempuh dan menerima sesuatu yang anda tak hajati itu menjadi lebih baik dari hajat anda yang asal itu.

- Anda berjaya meningkatkan diri dari semasa ke semasa

-Dan benda yang anda tingkatkan itu, berjaya diistiqamahkan.

- Dan juga apabila anda berjaya bangkit dari satu kejatuhan.

***

Dan saya juga tidak pernah kisah tentang kedudukan nama sendiri di board sekolah.

Namun di sini, mengapa ya, markah itu menjadi penting?
Dan markah yang dulu bagi saya bukan benda penting,
kini menjadi sesuatu yang membuatkan saya berasa tensi.

Duh.

I did some cleaning.

2008-06-05T08:10:00.000-07:00

But now i think it's way too clean.Don't you think?